Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Really Really Really Really Really Missing the Children.

Hello dears,

Whoever you are that is still following this (Sandra and Alina for sure). I hope your Easter was so full of the renewed sense that because Christ is alive, EVERYTHING is going to be more than okay! That was my Easter, Jesus just keeps coming to me in these little moments where my heart just becomes all fluttery. It is really very sweet how alive He makes me!

On this weekend, as is usual for most of my holidays, I am even more filled with longings and prayers for all the darlings of all the nations that I have visited-and those I haven't as well. In my heart this weekend I flew to Ukraine, Namibia, Mozambique and Haiti. I imagined the scene at each orphanage, and asked Jesus that this would be a weekend that they really get hold of who our God really really is. Oh I miss those kids and long to be with them! All of them!

I woke up in the middle of the night last night with a question swarming in my mind out of nowhere. "Who will sing over Founa?" Oh how my heart ached at it! The answer, "You Jesus. You must sing over her. That's your promise to her. You go now and sing over her always."

I woke up in the morning with Nancy and her lingering wounds. Healing Jesus! I began to see her through the eyes of the Resurrection! No more wounds! No more depression! No more lies!


Please keep praying for Miss Dev. The little 2 year old in need of a heart surgery. My hospital has said she is "back on the radar." Dr. Abi has written up a letter stating that her organization will take care of all fees for passports, visas and transportation for both Dev and dad. Now my hospital needs to approve it! I already find the Lord's hand in this that they would even invite me back for another meeting. One comment that was discouraging was when it was said, "that Dev is just like so many other millions in 3rd world countries who are in need...." She is not just another. She is one that we know, one that has touched our hearts, and one that Jesus has a plan and purpose for. Come Jesus in whatever way to heal your Devee!

I am currently praying about my future-as always!!!! I am so curious as to where, when and with whom He will send me. Some questions before him for example: Do you want me to go where no one else wants to go? Do you want me to go where they have never heard of Jesus? Do you want me in Haiti where missionaries abound? Do you want me in Africa where there will always be a need? Should I continue to work full time until the very moment I leave? Should I switch to part time as I prepare and am being trained to go? When should I do that if so? How shall I be trained? Here in my home church or abroad in a training school? Ladeedadeeda. Do not worry as you read this, I am not in a full tizzy over it. I keep hearing in many different ways His gaurantee: (just as when I lost my passport), I have not for a moment stepped off the path He has for me, He is not for a moment delayed in coming to meet me. He will do what will give Him the greatest glory and me the greatest joy. AMEN!

2 comments:

Sandra's Latest... said...

Hi there!
Yes, it's me again :)
Still reading!
I so hear your heart.
Thanks for your recent email. I will try to write back tomorrow!!
I totally understand this 'waiting' phase.
You should read what I posted on my blog recently- something I read about Habakkuk. It was encouraging to me. Maybe it will be good for you right about now too.
http://www.sandralako.blogspot.com

Hugs,
Sandra

Anonymous said...

amanda i do follow your blog because it often mirrors my own thoughts and prayers. you are further along in your journey, i think, in that you have found more answers than me...but still the searching and the wondering about the future in regards to missions are not unlike mine. i am praying for you and eager to see what God has in store. for the both of us!