Good morning everyone, this is for you Tricia because you asked more details and I think my email isn't working properly because I am learning that several people I have tried to email that way have not received the messages-anyhow I am sure you all would like to know more!
So, yes, in our worship songs for example if we'd sing "Oh how I love Jesus...." this girl would sing "Oh how I love satan." Her name is Regina, she has also been walking around with a glaring eye and turning her chin up and head away from us. I will be so glad for your prayers for her!
As for the housemothers, all have been mad because they want to speak to Hatwig about all these problems they claim to have-problems which are based on the human condition of wanting more for the self even though they are treated better than any common worker here-better hours, better pay, better food, ect. Hatwig is Anja's father-in-law and is only the treasurer of the place. Mandy is always complaining that she wants only to speak to him in the same breath that she says she doesn't want a white person helping her because they will all not understand (Hatwig is a white man also.) There is much racist thinking involved at this point.
Two housemothers, Otilie and Gerda, may get upset about Hatwig not coming, but there way of dealing with it is to back off quietly and talk about it among each other. Mandy is always saying she has no problems, if she did she would come out and say so. But I knew it wasn't always true because here and there she will sometimes say things such as, "this place isn't blessed" or "God isn't really here" and "I was better off living in the horse stables."
On this particular morning I entered the kitchen, asking if the children had been given their daily vitamins. They hadn't and Mandy could not find them. She said, "someone has taken them." It was a new bottle of 90 tablets. I asked the children, did someone take them. Mandy then found them and said I had accused her of stealing. This is when explosions of the mouth came from her. I know Mandy just well enough to know she has a temper. Many times she is not soo angry, but will have this front in which I know not to speak to her in that moment and then she will come to me and apologize and we can talk reasonably. Anyhow I did try a couple times to reason with her, but she would not give and inch for a word. Just waving her finger and yelling such things as "you two are little children. I am older (she is 32) and you are under me (which we aren't), and you have done nothing while you are here." "Useless volunteers." I knew all of these to be untrue and they really didn't get at me. I chose to walk away, but Bethany remained. She was also furious that we hadn't given her a warm good morning greeting that day. That point was highlighted to no end! Anyhow she continue to cut Bethany down and then went on with more racist remarks such as that we are the whites and she is just the shadow, then all the kids started in this riot coming after Bethany yelling that they are black and she is white. So we had to lock them out of our hall...which is when we began praying.
Is it more than you wanted to read? Well lastnight I at first couldn't fall asleep. When I did I had an awful nightmare about the Haven. So awful that when I woke I asked Bethany to come sleep in my bed beside me and when I told her about the dream she began to cry. We then prayed the blood of Jesus over every heart, mind and soul in the Haven and over us and that the protective arms of our Abba would be in place tonight. We slept in peace after that. Bethany and I must stand strong and together. It is vital! Please continue to pray.
Dad, thanks for your prayers and for Psalm 10-that is a good one, verse 12 especially!
Tricia, I loved the laughs you gave me!
Grace, all your extra prayers are a blessing!
Beth, I haven't heard from you, but I have no doubt that you and Jenni join in prayer for me!
Momma! Don't be worried okay? We serve the victor! He is the almighty! Read Psalm 91 and you will not have to be afraid for me. Just pray. I love the prayers of my mom!
I love you all dearly!
3 comments:
Thank you Amanda for living the truth; there is no question that you are doing the Lords work there and that His spirit is on you. You are living the scriptures spoke of in Isaiah 61 which Jesus quoted in Luke 4:18-21.
You are doing what Christains are called to do and the enemy is raising up because He fears the impact of Gods work through you.
I have submitted your prayer request for you at The Ark so you have the support of hundreds of brothers and sisters here in Hawaii. Don't back down, lean on the Lord for your strength, and continue to praise God. Speak His word in public and in private, claim the victory that is ours already. He has already overcome the enemy and any circumstance that says otherwise is only lies and deception.
Love, Dad
1 Corinthians 15:57 But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
Gee that is ruff. Seems to me these housemothers should be the prime focus, touch them and your impact on the children will continue after you are gone. I just don't understand why they don't want to be peaceful. It has to be a very hardening consecution to take care of so many hurting children. Maybe invent housemothers day and treat them to a homemade spa and have the kids make cards to tell them how they are appriciated. Do they get along with Anja? That reminds me, what did you get for them as gifts when you came, and is the lotin there really as moisterizing as you were told? If so please bring me some for my Colorado winter!
As for Regina, how old is she? My first instinct is to ask who told her to do that? But no one told me, in fact I remember once when you and Nichole dragged me to youth group at River, after sitting through the service with that glare. A leader came up to me afterwards and asked me of my stance with God, I told him I was evil and he said almost laughing, "Who told you that?" Then you walked up and I wanted to retreat the conversation immidiatly. I remember how I looked that night, my new short hair, sagalicouse jeans, and that mustard ambercrombie shirt, and black eyeliner. I wish I had a pic of that haircut! It's bedtime again, I have to be at the wic office at 7:50am tommarow, yikes! I love you.
Amanda- We are praying for victory! Sam had us all praying on Tuesday night for you guys. I just wanted you to know we love you and are praying for you. I am specifically praying for great grace and that God's great power will be in that place. Acts 4:33 And with great power gave the apostles witness of the resurrection of the Lord Jesus: and great grace was upon them all.
Love,
Gina
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